Moving over to Tumblr

I figured Tumblr is alot easier to use and has better layouts available so please follow me on Tumblr!

Spent some more time Drawing than usual

Mr. Magic

Kindra

N'al De Fey

New Computer up and running

Jesus finally I can convert that old one into a development devoted comp!

It had DDR2 memory and was very hard to work with for a while since alot of its tech was outdated as well. But with this new comp I have 16 gigs of moving power so now I can start striving closer to my goals!

My writing is ALIVE

For the longest time I've only lived in my head and played around with ideas of stories and plot lines. This that and the third and I was great (so I believe) at coming up with interesting tales and characters. I could make a story off of a single thought, even so much as a single sound could easily spark my imagination into overdrive. I could rattle off about everything I've possibly thought of but since I pulled an entire continuity reboot and started from scratch that would be pointless. Back to what I was saying.

My most recent writings in the The Sentinels, which is an episodic story on a blog, has made me start to realize the writing itself is... living. Week to week I've got to expand the story and keep things on track and while I'm doing this I find myself saying "No no, she wouldn't do that." or "He/she's gotta make this happen" and I slowly started realizing that this stuff has a mind of its own. When it wants to expand it demands a new character or plot element. It demands a character act a certain way or a scene have a certain type of symbolism. At first I thought "ok... I've lost it" and perhaps maybe I have but I as the writer can't deny what the story wants. It's part of me, my creation so why would I neglect it?

That was just the thought of the moment, I apologize if this is like an obvious point for everyone or just plain insane. But that's what I was thinking.

Growth

With the addition of a new character named Mr. Magic in my The Sentinels series, where magic is a prevalent force/ plot element. He is a character who's pretty well versed in the mystic arts and I realized "oh crap, I haven't mapped this crap out yet!"

So for the last 4 hours I've been mapping out and defining the various colors and schools of magic, what they do and what uses they have.

At first I thought "This is gonna be easy, I play Final Fantasy"

Ugh. Because I wanted to be original and not just copy and paste from another work I used other fantasy worlds as influence on my own. And Cripes! Coming up with an entire hierarchy for magic isn't easy AT ALL. And after all that work the back of my head was pounding and I needed to lie down for second.

While it was uncomfortable I feel a tad bit accomplished that I cared enough about my writing to create an entire system for just a plot element. If this was some time ago maybe I'd like to say a year ago I wouldn't have even bothered and probably woulda taken the magic schools out and just winged it in explaining it all. I myself am surprised at how much I've grown as a writer and how much writing has grown on me.

Writing hasn't always been a top top priority like it has become now. I would just pump stories out and not even care about the whos, whats, whens, wheres, or hows It would just be a "Yup that's that" and I'd just go on to create another. But with what I feel now I want my stories to be worth the read or at least worth the look. And this is how far I'm willing to go for it.

Marshall Mathers LP 2 is a no go

I got Marshall Mathers LP 2 a week ago and like any Eminem fan I was excited but with a healthy dose of skepticism. I was hoping maybe he'd go COMPLETELY back to MM LP and back to the cleverness and gore that made him. And did he succeed? Short answer: no.

It seems Eminem's a bit more disappointed in himself these days more than usual and decided to make an album in a last ditch effort to recapture his magnum opus back from 2000, or 13 years ago if you can't count backward very well.

Eh. Never thought I wouldn't be able to sit through an Eminem project, hell I sat through Relapse just fine the first time (Stay Wide Awake still gives me nightmares though) so why couldn't I get through this? One word: Production. It absolutely PILEDRIVED this album into the ground. It wasn't a homage to early 2000's Eminem it was more late 2010 Eminem. But the thing is Recovery was GOOD, I particularly enjoyed it, but MM LP 2 feels more like Recovery 2 than anything.

The beats just make you want to tuck yourself in. Outside of Rhyme or Reason, Bad Guy, and Brainless There was absolutely no notably good production on the songs, and the hooks sung by these various different women here and there, I don't know what that was about. Even with the lyricism being Eminem standard clever and fast the beats and hooks killed all excitement on pretty much every track. It didn't feel like the MM LP Eminem that he reached for. Honestly half the beats coulda gone to Macklemore.

If I had to Rate this album 3.5/5

What did you think? Comment below

King Grim turns 21!

Happy birthday to me this fine Veteran's day as well as a happy Veteran's day to all the Veterans out there including my mother. While today was more of a day of rest for me I still feel as though finally I've gotten my life back on the track it was meant to travel on. I've still got a long journey ahead of me but FINALLY I can say my head is on straight.

I really want my goal: to become a mogul. To build an Empire and have a legacy to share even when I'm gone (dark thought).

Time to start moving into the future further and further.

And continuing with my advancement into the future, The Sentinels has also advanced itself quite a bit into it's future with the latest release. Nicholas and Tonya Harding finally meet!

Go check it out for yourself!

As always thank you guys for reading, I appreciate it alot! Make sure you follow this blog and The Grim Library so you'll be the first to know when new stories come out!

Anyways, much love guys!

~ King Grim

How Bleach prevented me from watching or reading any more Anime and Manga

I'll admit I was a 90's baby which means I grew up on DBZ and Yu Yu Hakusho and pretty much everything else Toonami played. For the last couple years I got wrapped in Animes and almost always they were impressive with each tale and the art styles never got old even though they're virtually all the same.

Then I watched Bleach... As soon as I watched the end of the Aizen conflict I left more pissed than the last episode of Inuyasha.... So many... goddamn plotholes... glaringly obvious character inconsistencies and constant constant PIS PIS PIS (Plot induced stupidity)

It was like Taito Kubo wrote himself into a corner and instead of writing himself out of it he tore the damn walls down. I just... I felt so betrayed... I invested time in this series more than any other series because the Shinigami Invasion arc was flawless and the character development was great up to that part.

I watched the Bound arc... shut up...

It really got bad at the Hueco Mundo arc, powers coming out of nowhere, characters introduced , established, and bopped pretty much immediately, Ichigo dies twice but comes back from the force of love or something. I for the life of me started tearing my hair out at the whole end to the Aizen kidnaps Orihime thing, that BLEW ME. At this point mentally I'm like "Why me? Kubo, what did I do?" But I stuck with the series still.

The next Arc I WAS DONE.

The things that made me cry:

• Ikkaku not using Bankai despite reality itself being at stake (This is at the fucking top because WOW)
• Kumomora's Bankai making no sense
• Tousen, just that was pointless
• Gin's Bankai making no sense
• Shunsui Koryaku's bankai being "too dangerous to use while people are looking" (WHAT!)
• Aizen's Death (YES HE DID DIE)
• Wonderweiss
• Everyone vs Aizen
• Soi Fong's Bankai not making sense
• Why did Aizen slice up Hallibel?
• All the useless support characters standing within hugging distance of Aizen without "losing their existence" when previously they could barely see ghosts
• Various power level inconsistencies
• Ichigo's dad is how fucking old?
• Why does Ishin Kurosaki know Getsuga Tensho? Where'd Final Getsuga Tensho come from?
• The final fight with Aizen
• Yammy is number 0
• Shunshui Koryaku's Shikai

I've never been able to commit myself to another series since. I even went back to Inuyasha to see the final act but this was just too much. It hurt. It scarred me and has since prevented me from ever touching another anime/manga

The Sentinels #5 is up!

Rufio in prison may be the worst idea yet! There's some serious trouble going down in Santa Maya Prison. And you can probably tell who's behind it, but if you can't!

Find out now!

Nicholas Blade appears in The Sentinels #5

The Silver haired assassin is going to make his debut appearance in the Sentinels #5 as well as a view of what's to come. A sneak peek at what's upcoming? Let's just say Rufio has been captured! Wait what?

Retraining

As many who are fans of me know I have erratic patterns when it comes to schedules and yes this is very very true. Well you see I've been so used to being lazy and enjoying myself that I've forgotten a bit of discipline from my old marching days.

Anyways here's to me getting back in form. I'm gonna start putting forth my effort to make quality content for the library and actually retrain myself to adhere to a schedule.

Sentinels #4 is up!

Tonya Harding faces the consequences of her actions and tries to keep her head on straight. And what's going on with Rufio? Why are his wrists bleeding?

Find out now!

Dreadskull #3 is up!

D'Angelo and crew find themselves accepting a $4 Million dollar deal in transporting Tori to Russia. Thing is how will they get the money? They may find the answer when they go to Port Winter, Tori's home town.

Find out now!

Okay back to once a week..

Forgot I work 6 days out of the week. Sorry people.

But to make up for it I'll make sure the reads are at least worth a bit of your time in both length and quality.

The Sentinels #3 is up!

In a confrontation with Rufio, X, and Everettia and Tonya gets to show another side of herself. What's up with her, did she snap?

Find out now!

Character Bio - Tonya Harding (Some Spoilers)

Tonya Harding is a leading protagonist in the series The Sentinels. Her dedication to justice and equality are as unrivaled as her guilt complex, while she's often meant well her efforts sometimes leave drastic impacts on the people around her. As well as her sense of justice is driven by her pride she has also will go to great lengths to hide her secrets.

Born to Patrick and Tera Harding November 4, 1980, Tonya was born with the Reaver gene. Her powers broke free accidentally when she was 16, during school when she accidentally destroyed her locker. She was reported to FBI and taken to Project Purity the very same day.

During the lobotomy, Tonya's vibrational based powers disrupted the laser based process, preventing any damage to her brain, unbeknownst to the operators. This gave her an extreme advantage over her Reaver brethren, who were incapable of complex thought. Sneaking into the databases one night she changed her new given identity of 'Rachel Rowe' from Dickinson, North Dakota back to Tonya Harding of Trenton, New Jersey. Inevitably getting caught in this incident Tonya put on the act of her life convincing the superiors to chalk the behavior up to sleepwalking.

For almost twenty years Tonya was forced to act as a Drone, thoughtlessly obedient. Taught to love and serve her country, a country that despised her kind. When she was 18, it was time for her to join the military with the rest of the Drones. As much as she wanted to light an American Flag on fire and go on the run she knew that being a national fugitive was a dead end. So she endured the atrocities of being a Drone woman in the military among those who saw her as a thoughtless and sexually exploitable object, holding on to her sanity by keeping a secret diary of her thoughts and experiences. However the experience wasn't entirely negative. It forced Tonya to mature and actually understand the value of equality for everyone, it made her into the Justice seeking woman she is today.

From her years in the military she transitioned into the government. She became the founder and leader of The Sentinels, an anti-gang unit in the Blackout sector. It was rare for a Drone to have such a high responsibility but Tonya's superiors agreed she was far beyond exceptional.

Catch more of Tonya in The Sentinels Weekly story series as she leads in the fight against Rufio.

A Week is Too damn long!

I like the response I'm getting for the weekly stories and I'd like to thank everyone who came and took a look! But I'm starting to feel like I'm cheating you guys a bit, the stories should be coming a bit faster than week by week for little chunks, right?

New schedule: Sunday and Wednesday! Weekly story releases for of course the ongoing series and maybe a couple extra thrown in if I have them completed. It's only right, you guys deserve content a bit faster.

~Grim

Dreadskull #2 and The Sentinels #2 is out!

So the Dreadskulls found the mystery woman so now what? What are they gonna do with her? What can she do for them?

Find out now!

Will what happened to Beetle and his men happen to Drive?

Find out now!

Attempting some inking and shading!

So this is my first attempt at inking and shading. Incidentally it's also a cover photo for Dreadskull #2 - One Million.

 

What's the mystery woman holding and who's she holding it too? You'll find out on Sunday!

The Origins of The Sentinels and DreadSkull and the upcoming Special Forces

The Sentinels is my attempt at a team based narrative but it actually stemmed from a solo character in the series named Nicholas. All of both current series were branched from his creation entirely.

Nicholas Blade

 Nicholas was actually the most recent protagonist I've created and it's funny because he didn't start off as a protagonist, he actually started off as an antagonist. Kind of still is really. His first appearance came from a brainstorm on my actual first series creation, Special Forces. He was a mercenary in New York who happened to be hired to kill the wrong person and the protagonist, Jamal, an officer in the Special Forces, was sent to bring him in. What followed was an odd philosophical and physical fight between the two. Their views clashed but they found an uneasy connection between Nicholas' dirty work and Jamal's sense of Justice. The fight itself was a great demonstration of Nicholas' speed too, he was able to fire a shot from a pistol and immediately slice the bullet in two with a Katana, simply as a show of skill. The battle ends up with the two of them being trapped in the abandoned building they're fighting in as it begins to burn to the ground. However there's a kid in the building, a runaway, that Nicholas saves and hands off to Jamal before the building collapses with him inside of it, Jamal barely lives along with the kid. Nicholas' final words were, "I've been in this situation more times than you can count, I bet. Like I told you before, the baddest always survive."

The whole story was eventually shelved but I actually wanted a guy like Nicholas to return. His pessimistic good heart bad world outlook made for some good story opportunities.

The original main cast of Ruin
In my early drawing stages

Enter the story of Ruin. A series based on pessimism and the examination of humanity and religious views and beliefs. Nicholas is home. The series started off very very very different than what it is now. For instance, a main character who will be introduced in The Sentinels #2, Christopher Hughes, was originally introduced as a villain with a purple suit, hat, and cane. A cane the clones... Ok so he was virtually a pimp, but I had to debunk the stereotype somehow, but it didn't work well with his thick Southern accent. He was able to handily defeat Nicholas with clever clone usage a couple times and as I developed ideas around him and designed his personality I realized he's a character that seems more driven to be a hero and a redemption artist.

So BAM! Another story change. This time the themes would stay put but roles were switched around. This time around Nicholas was casted in the role of desperate father trying to get enough money for an operation his daughter needs. His line of mercenary work was lead by people called Contract Vendors, middlemen who legally contracted mercenary work for others under a shady part of the government. But at this time all the contract Vendors in New Jersey had suddenly vanished (through means of a criminal mastermind killing or kidnapping them) but there was one woman who became a rogue vendor, someone who contracts illegally, because she needed to buy enough of her husbands company to keep it out of the wrong hands. The two of them meet and a story follows of friendship and betrayal. This marks the introduction of the Shadow Lady, Evelyn Shield,  a character I'm particularly fond of for many reasons, namely her willingness to cross her own moral boundaries to help save someone, which is why she became an illegal vendor. And her original plan was to have no ties to Nicholas after he completed the contract work for her (vendors got paid a portion of the contract.) And for a while this was the road I wanted to travel, exploring just how far people will go and what people will do for those they love. Nicholas is willing to do some dirty work to save his daughter and Evelyn is wiling to become a criminal to help her husband. The story started off with a crazy fight scene between Nicholas and Evelyn as a prologue to illustrate where the story was headed. Evelyn abuses her shadow abilities to completely overwhelm Nicholas combined with her amazing hand to hand combat. As I developed the relationship between the characters I realized that Evelyn just isn't capable of this, she just isn't. And this story was okay but I wanted something a bit more involved with these two working together.

Evelyn Shields, The Shadow Lady

So, BAM! Story has changed again. For the last time thankfully. I liked the idea of these two working together but I wanted it not to be great at first. At the time I was re-watching Justice League and was absolutely astounded by the character development and how balanced it was among so many characters especially in Justice League Unlimited. It was something I never noticed or appreciated in my younger age, I was too hooked on anime and thought anime was American. Anyway with a deep inspiration in my heart I found where I wanted to take the story and the next couple of characters came in like clockwork. This time the story was still themed around the pessimism and analysis of religion but I wanted the message of "The line between good and evil has no definition" to be clear as day. It went along with the theme of the two previous primary antagonists turning to protagonists. I was inspired to draw that out from the last arc of the Justice League where Hawkgirl's people invade. It illustrated that anyone can be a hero and or a villain and that's how Ruin was to be.

Tonya Harding

That's when I introduced Tonya Harding and Rufio Martin and Everettia Tallow  to finally completed the circle. Tonya originally started out as the supervisor of the Sentinels program which took incarcerated Reavers, supernaturally gifted humans (that society hates) and uses them as a deniable asset team to the government. Eventually that storyline got ironed into what is the Sentinels today. Tonya is now the leader of The Sentinels which was just a special gang unit, however when they get absolutely obliterated by Rufio and his men she decides to fight fire with fire and use some criminal Reavers of her own to combat him.


DreadSkull

D'Angelo

With Dreadskull, the main protagonist, D'Angelo,  came from Nicholas as well. In the picture above of the original cast of Ruin he's all the way at the end at the right. He was originally slated to be Nicholas' partner in crime. He was a man who always had a taste for destruction and whenever he showed up something was gonna get fucked up. But the problem I had with this was I really really liked D'Angelo and he seemed to be a character that was much more than just some wacky sidekick. More and more I inched him in different directions. But the real problem I had with him was What was he about? He just liked destruction. He didn't have any background developed, he was just the Russian Madman. Digging into what I liked and what I liked at that time was One Piece. I absolutely loved the dark storyline hidden under the bright vibrant art style. It seemed like an angle I could work with, D'Angelo was a man who craved living free and loved destruction. But it was still gonna take some work on his background, Why? Why would a man be so obsessed with chaos? I created an origin story that atypically involved mobsters. With this, I had D'Angelo set, he was the man who was hated at birth and got dealt the bad hand. Believing himself to be the cause of his mother's death D'Angelo grew up angry and hellbent on avenging her someday. But that type of pain changes a man, it made him attempt to quell the pain by going for thrill after dangerous thrill. Heist after heist. He's on a path of self destruction and he knows it and he doesn't care. This will be explored more in Dreadskull as the series continues. Will his decisions lead him to fortune or to the grave? Can his crew stop him or will they be dragged down with him? He's already in hot water right now, so stay tuned in for next week's chapter.

Special Forces Incoming

With those two titles off and running I decided to bring back the one that started it all. We all love our first creations and I'm no exception. Jamal Clarence takes center stage in the fantasy world of Special Forces. And because of connections with both series I have to split this series between Jamal's present and past. The reason being is that I want develop him as a character but his appearances elsewhere are further ahead in his timeline than i wanted it to be but he's important to certain parts of other series.

So The next in my flash fiction series will be Special Forces, similar in format to the Sentinels. Jamal is
commander in the Earth Special Forces which is a secret organization that deals with extreme threats like aliens or large supernatural disasters. He has to deal with balancing his private life as well as being the big man in leading a whole force.

The second half of the series is Special Forces: Street Level. Following Jamal in his earlier years after leaving the army behind and first joining the special forces. It's more of a personal drama as it leads up to his decisions to be a hero.

And that's how all my current series came to be. I really wanted to hare my thought process behind creating what I create. Thanks for the read and stay tuned guys!

~Grim

(Poem) A Vulgar Analysis of my relationships

I once met a girl

who only wanted to fuck

and I think to myself

just my luck.

Another girl

with no strings attached

who’d love nothing more

than to be flat on her back.

She can’t be controlled

heart’s an emotional basket

imagine a guy

who actually wants an emotional attachment.

It seems strange

like a blue moon even

a guy

who isn’t a sex crazed heathen.

But if we’re gonna take this route

I’ve already seen it

Might as well strap up

and make it scenic.

Couple sights to see

all of which aren’t new

It’s the same sights in my eyes

What does it mean to you?

Dreadskull #1 is up!

Follow the Dreadskull crew as they venture heist a weapons cache for a quick rip and run. But is it really that simple?

Find out now!

(Poem) Curtains

Curtains up

I’m nervous as hell

My time to shine but

why is the light so damn blinding?

I took a look at the crowd

only black silhouettes

each one had a voice

and I’m sure had a face

They watched as I grabbed the microphone

They eagerly waited word for word I’m sure

Watching me talk was something of a spectacle

perhaps an eloquent idiot

an educated buffoon

a combination of the two maybe

That I can’t see their faces worries me

That I can’t distinguish voice from voice disturbs me

what are their reactions?

what did they say?

Applause is just applause.

A tradition.

The curtain fell

And I’m every bit as nerve wracked

as when it rose.

Made a newer blog! Strictly for stories

I originally started this blog to tell the stories I wanted to tell but I find myself using this blog as a means to vent and release somewhat. But I really want to show off my stories too! But I don't want it to be lost within rambling of my personal feelings or things of the sort

To accommodate for this I grabbed a new blog strictly for telling stories. The main series that will be told is a series called The Sentinels, a team or supernatural convicts who're recruited by a desperate FBI agent in order to aid her in her justice seeking.

In addition I'll be doing character bios on this blog for different characters in the series. The series will be released on a weekly basis in number order. It'll be in short story like fashion and will even include illustration at points.

So please guys take a look, the first story has been posted and subscribe to be the first to know when the next part of the tale is available!

Thanks guys!

~Grim

Want more Drawings!

I completely forgot that I made this blog to showcase my- Oh screw it here's some more recent sketches

In a previous post I admitted my perfectionism and you know what that's quite a problem. So in order to get over it it's time to show my progress.

A burning Secret

Alright so this is becoming PAINFULLY apparent to everyone. I'm extremely timid. I hate that people may not like what I do or make. It's something people get therapy for I'm sure, but the thing that makes that worse is that my pride keeps me from getting help. You see the way I am I don't WANT help despite me needing it. I don't have anyone to vent to strangely, just a blog. Okay I can bitch to the internet.

But the thing is, the reason I disappear for months to years at a time is because I'm afraid of judgement. I WANT to beat everyone and wave my dick in their face like "SUCK IT BITCH" but that moment can easily be deflated by criticism. I don't know why it's always been that way, I was always used to being the best at anything in school (non sports related) When we did class projects I made sure to put extra effort into things and make them truly unique. But now that I have millions of peers compared to about 20 it makes standing out so much harder, I want to be recognized, I want the recognition dammit.

I'm not irrational (cause rational people contradict themselves like I'm about to) I know hard work leads to recognition.

 "Practice doesn't make perfect. Practice makes better."

Words from my band teacher throughout middle school and I never took them seriously. I honestly think maybe I live in a hell of my own creation and I don't apply the talent I know I have in order to hide my imperfections. It's a crazy cycle but I've done it for years. I am the man with the plan with no means to execute them. My plans always sound amazing and that was the one thing that kept me going, that everybody expects something great and they'll always expect it and I honestly don't want to disappoint that hype so I never come through. I've rarely completed a project I've started. It's a cycle that I need to break if I'm to get anywhere in life, but I'm so used to being lazy and I don't fucking know why.

Like Merle Dixon said, "I'm a complete mystery to me" and I seem to know all the answers off the bat but never actually use them. This is the mind of the Grim.

~Grim

Anybody think that Final Fantasy 13 was a flop?

I couldn't sit through the first 4 hours of this game before I sold it. Lightning was completely unlikeable and well let's face it, a bitch. I felt Szach (don't care how it's spelled) was a whiny old man "looking after the children" (not even gonna go into how creepy that sounds) I though Snow was an idiot, Hope was a loser, Vanille... was from Mars.

Jesus, this game didn't have any charm whatsoever. The maps were linear, the story was OMGWTFISGOINGON?!, the battle system was mash X to win. I would go on to say this is probably the worst RPG I've ever played. And the reason I bring this up is because

Yes. Square is scraping for acceptance. Lightning is wearing the costume a much cooler character, Yuna, once wore from a game that's significantly better as well as over a decade old. Lightning is NOT LIKEABLE and this is embarrassing marketing for the final chapter in the FFXIII trilogy. And with this move -- as well as her being able to dress as Cloud Strife -- Square is openly admitting "Look we fucked up, forgive us, buy this game and we'll use the money to make FFXV good."

Unfortunately, I'm a pretty hard sell. I'm not even gonna pat my pocket for this title, I've had enough emo and bitchy from you. Which is kind of weird to me admittedly because my favorite Final Fantasy was 8 and if you remember Squall was moody too. But here's the thing, he was relate-able! A troubled teen who shut out his friends and treated people coldly because he felt alone, he had the weight of the world on his shoulders, it made alot of sense for his psyche to crack. I can relate to being a loner who hates people, I can't relate to being a moody bitch who's cold to everything with a beating heart.

People told me the game gets good 20 hours in and what's that saying? I have to sit through 20 hours of SHIT to get to the gold? What kind of ass-backwards design philosophy does that come from? Why would I do that to myself when I can just play a game like Final Fantasy 8 which is intriguing from the get-go. It's a huge gamble and it lost.

A man of Fear

One of my favorite villains is actually all about this concept (Scarecrow). I recently just started brainstorming on a hot topic of mine and I actually wanted to roll with it as ridiculous as it sounds. I want to make a hero named 'Fear Man.' Yes it sounds completely generic but work with me here. Generic leaves the door open for more broader appeal without sacrificing the depth of the character. I mean look at Superman or Spiderman, those names are quite generic to be frank about it, but are easily identifiable to everyone because it breaks down into two things "Insert word here" which is usually an object, subject, or place that a large amount of people can relate to and then insert the word 'Man' which refers to humans. Everyone can relate to being human.

The main synopsis of this idea is that a man can and will have to do things he's afraid to do. And when he's able to get over the fear he realizes that the fear really was the worst part and that they're capable of so much when they get over that hump. Here's a copy and paste from my brainstorm.

Synopsis: Norman Hawkins, a psychology professor, witnesses a mafia hit on a man by mistake and his family is then threatened as a result if he attempts to testify against the assailant which prompts Norman to reluctantly refuse to testify allowing the hitman to get off. Feeling weak that he was intimidated and manipulated Norman becomes the Fear Man, a vigilante who uses his own brand of psychological scare tactics to battle crime.

Sounds weird, but what superhero origin doesn't? See I've been hooked on Breaking Bad for the past 2 weeks being that I missed it on television when it came out (and I do feel ashamed) and I absolutely fell in love with how Walt's character developed throughout the series, how he, a man faced with a death sentence, decided to go all out to provide for his family. And over the course of the series you see him progress into an increasingly more dangerous man and even to a point, psychopathic.

I LOVE this concept which is basically why, actually halfway why, I wanted to do this story. The other half was actually in the works years and years ago by the name of a hero I never quite got around to using, Nightmare, the Dream Ninja. In which case he actually didn't raid your dreams, but he was an assassin so perfect, so deadly, so efficient, that if you heard that you were his next target you'd have nightmares about him. The character just never came to fruition for me, I had too much time making him into something that could actually develop, but eventually a majority of his traits became a hero I work on constantly named Nicholas Blade, a much more sympathetic anti hero in my opinion.

The Fear man is my attempt to try and unravel my own fears and of course the theme is get others to examine theirs. I want to be as unique and clever as I can about it. And I actually want this to stay in a novel form rather than comic like my other works.

Anyway that's all I got, it's actually 4 in the morning and I'm waiting for this damn Aleve to kick in so I can friggin sleep, 12 hours my ass. Took one of those hours for the damn thing to START working. Anyways I just wanted to share my thought process, thanks for reading.

~Grim

Lunchables Pizzas are indeed the best

I am going to make a post solely to appreciate the awesomeness of Pizza Lunchables.

What is going on with me?

Lately I feel as though I'm not motivated by anything anymore. I'm gonna have to blame my mother, she seems to be trying to force me to succeed. It's like I'm not allowed to fail. I hate this feeling, she's doing everything for me: Taxes, insurance, cell phone bill etc. I feel as though I'm not in control and that bothers the hell out of me. I'm someone who NEEDS control or I just feel helpless

I don't feel like I'll ever succeed if I go on like this. I want to be able to actually explore myself and get to know who I am and what I want. I feel as though I have no more room to grow so long as I remain under the roof of my parents.

It is clear what I must do.

P.S. 133 Observational log Day 6

A lot of the kids seem to be very active in extra curricular activities, more so than in other schools. Countless flyers are tacked to the billboard in the commons area with various student clubs. One flyer I found the most interest in, it was a red flyer is the picture of an enlarged eye on it that read "The Imperfects" and below it read "The club for the gifted." It was the perfect tagline in my opinion, it doesn't state that it's 'a club for the gifted' it states that it was 'the club for the gifted.'

I asked around the student body for information on The Imperfects. Strangely enough information was scarce, the students didn't seem too fond of the idea and I didn't know what that idea even was. I assumed it was an esoteric social club from the kids reactions.

I managed to catch up with Bobby Ricks again and decided to ask him his opinion on The Imperfects, because if anyone was gonna be loose lipped on a subject I figured it would be him. He gave me the gist; The Imperfects was indeed a social club for 'gifted' students and he made sure to emphasize gifted as a description. When pressed about it he didn't go into detail on what gift the members had, he only revealed that there's much more going on under the surface of the school.

I changed the subject to elaborating on his remark of being a hero, attempting to establish maybe some connection to him and the student body and why he would consider himself a 'hero.' At first he was quiet. He gave me a look attempting to feel me out, see if I was trustworthy or not I'm betting. When he felt comfortable he told something that may just make this school observation a bit deeper than what I had originally thought.

"Ever wonder what it would be like to punch through a wall, to lift ten times your own weight, to move things with your mind? I don't have to anymore. It's funny how you see the world on the surface, and then you peel off the wallpaper. I'll say this once, Ted, keep digging around and you're in for it."

I didn't know whether to take it as a warning or a threat. Bobby disappeared to class and I went back to the board. I observed the names of the clubs again, this time there were more that stuck out to me. At first they seemed harmless, but coupling them with Bobby's words, names like "Order club" and "All Animal's club" appear to have a bit of secret meaning behind them.

While I take Bobby's words with a grain of salt, I'm starting to get a strange vibe here. It may just be the nonsensical rambling of a mind polluted by television and comic books or it could be some sort of message. So far he's the only lead I have in this mute school for anything and he seems really adement on either playing this gag or giving me a warning. Either way it's my assignment for the next few weeks so I better find something, something that the FBI can use, but I never got to ask what exactly what I was supposed to find.

P.S. 133 Observational log Day 2

I regret having to report that there is nothing interesting to report. I took the time out to interview one of the new students who arrived recently, Bobby Ricks. He recently switched schools because of an undisclosed incident. He's quite the character I'll admit.

How are you getting along in the new school, Bobby?

Oh, I can't complain. It's got a weight room and girls, all I need. Really there's not much you can ask from a school, class is gonna be boring as hell, the lunch is gonna be lethal, and the teachers are gonna bitch about their paychecks a lot.

Is that how you view all schools?

Hey, go dumpster diving looking for a diamond ring. If you're disappointed by the trash and filth while you look, you need help.

And how would you describe the student body?

Pennsylvania doesn't change man, the people don't change. You got the nerds, jocks, and uh, oh wow is there another type of person? I've never though much past that.

How would you rate the teachers?

A lot of them probably took this job as a last resort, haha. Who the hell wants to teach these kids? I mean there's girls like Tina, she's got OCD practically coming out her ears, I don't think she even knows how to pay attention. Think about how frustrating it would be to question someone who doesn't pay attention, jeez man.

Do you believe the teachers do a good job, Bobby?

What? Sorry wasn't paying attention.


Do you believe the-

Ha, I'm just yankin' ya man. Look the teachers do the best they can, but come on you can't teach the unwilling. For the most part I'll say yes they do, simply to fill my good deed for the day quota.

So you don't believe they actually do a good job?

I'm really not going to repeat myself.

Fine then lets move on. Bobby I'm going ask you about things less curricular, if that's okay with you. Lets say I'm working with the FBI and I've been sent to observe your school, what do you think I would find?

Quite an active imagination you got there Disney. I don't know what you would find honestly, there's like some secret society stuff going on I know that.

Secret societies? Care to elaborate?

I don't know man. It's kind of, like. Alright get this, certain people are doing certain things. Some weird ritualistic stuff down there man.

Rituals?

Oh man you really haven't been here nearly long enough. But really I shouldn't be speaking on this, am I free to go?

Sure, just one last question. What do you think your place is in this school, where do you specifically stand out amongst everyone?

Me? I'm a hero. That's all there is to it.

That was quite an interesting interview but I don't know if I can trust Bobby's intel. Whether it was true or some made up fantasy is difficult to determine. Either way I'm guessing there's a lot more than what's on the surface in this school. Anyway the day went by the same as yesterday, there was nothing unusual to report.

~Ted

Current project to be aimed at High School Life

High school was a treacherous time for all of us and a time most of us just want to take in the back yard and bury. I know it was for me that's for sure but however that means its just perfect for telling stories about especially in a supernatural type setting. My next tale will be following the lives of some high school teens gone superhero as they find it's pretty hard to juggle two lives at once.

While I have some cool pieces in mind and character archetypes I definitely want to do I don't quite have a solid story yet so for now this is all the info I have. It's Set in Philadelphia and is in the same storyverse as Cold Fire with the same race called the Reavers. These, however, are kids who weren't taken to Project Purity and got to live semi normal-lives. Of course the pressures of high school life and high school jackasses can ruin any good life so the transition from teen to hero can be rather hard.

P.S. 133 Observational log Day 1

Day 1, I was sent to this school to observe the children. Not sure of what they think I'll find here and honestly it annoys me to even be here. The halls are cluttered; strewn about with papers, snapped pencils, and other assorted school supplies and on top of that it smells in here.

I sat in on one of the classes and sat awestruck at the blatant lack of respect for the teacher and her lesson plans. One student, Bobby Ricks, is a complete class clown; he raises his hand to answer questions and says nothing more than snide remarks. The other children get a kick out of it but I am underwhelmed, he seems like a bright kid if he would run his mind more than his mouth. Next child I noticed was Megan Bronsten, she was just another stuck up snob of a girl, professionalism aside.

This was just one of the many classes I had the displeasure of sitting in on, this is honestly just a waste of my time. I've observed a total of eight classes today, each filled with the archetypical high school pick and mix of miscreants, and I've seen not one anomaly or anything worth noting, other than what I believed to be a handjob in the hallway somehow.

I don't get paid enough for this job. Day one yielded no observations on anything other than high school being a miasma of bad hygiene and wasted potential. Gonna log this down as inconclusive and come back tomorrow morning.

~Ted

Pushing one's self

So over the course of the last two years I've had a problem since I left high school and that was a serious lack of motivation. I seriously didn't think that there was anything that I NEEDED to do anymore and that I was free from the binds of school, free to be whatever I want, do whatever. Yea that turned into three wasted college semesters and a lot of money gone because I just didn't care. Truthfully I told myself I wanted to take a break from school when I graduated but then again that was me not pushing myself to want to do anything. I got lazy and sloth-like and let my overall health decline because I just didn't want to do anything I thought I could finally kick my feet up

Well Unfortunately that lead to the unhealthy lifestyle that my many many months in isolation have made me grow to resent. I started my little period of paranoia and such, and then I just decided to say FUCK THIS and started to force myself out of these terrible habits I've become accustomed to. And the first and most important thing I think I did was to actually finish something which was my book. I finished the first draft and still trying to get feedback from people on what worked and what didn't and this time I'm not saying it I'm actively trying. It took me soo much to realize that I get results from actually trying rather than sitting and waiting for the world to come to me.

I want to be the best and I need to actually get that push not from everyone else, but from myself because that's the person who pushes the hardest.

The Background of Kindra, as told by Kindra

Kindra, one of my favorite characters in the Ruin series talks about her fall from grace in the next step of the series.

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I was born alongside my twin sister, Andarla. We’re part of a race called the Judges. We are, by your mortal standards, gods. It doesn’t mean our lifestyle differs very much from you mortals, Andarla and I grew up very similar to Earth children; we were nursed, raised, and educated in homes.

When Judges come of age they are granted a sector to preside over. Andarla and I were given the rare opportunity to rule together over a sector that included your planet Earth. It was a great opportunity; my sister and I were the best of friends as children. But as I soon learned time wears on any relationship.

We were worshipped by the mortals on the planet. I was seen as a god of love and kinship, my sister a god of strength and beauty. They built statues in our honor based on astral visions of us in the stars, they were surprisingly accurate. While the praise went on for centuries Andarla had not received as much love and worship as I did and many of her followers had even chosen to follow me as well. This did not sit very well with her.

One day, her anger and jealousy had reached its peak. Without moment’s notice, Andarla plunged a sword through my heart, slaying me immediately. From there I fell from clouds on high down to Earth’s body of water. From what early records had stated, the resulting geyser was a fantastic sight. It was thought to be a meteorite that had fallen, no one had any clue that a god had fallen. My sister knew the worst humiliation for any god is to walk among mortals, she wanted to see me squirm and writhe.

I was resurrected as a mortal, waking up in a strange river. I made my way to the nearest civilization. Many of the inhabitants had recognized their fallen idol; however, they didn’t resent me as I expected. Even as a mortal my followers loved me just the same and kept me in high regard. This angered Andarla even more.

 For many generations my followers received my blessing. By drinking the water in which my godly blood had spilled, they received a much healthier and longer life. It was the most I could grant with my significantly reduced abilities. I was a greatly cherished individual, even more so than in my godhood, and I loved every one of my followers. I even settled and had children with a man that I had fallen in love with. My sister’s attempts to humiliate me had fallen flat, something she knew oh too well and planned to put a stop to.

Andarla had decided that she had been made a fool of for long enough. She released strife over the planet, cursing only those who had followed me, to a fate of being hideously mutated to resemble demons and given strange hellish abilities. And she had special plans for my bloodline. Each of my descendants fell gravely ill to a sickness which eventually claimed their lives. As well as a curse that was placed on my womb, causing every child I bare to die.

I was no longer considered an idol. Considered nothing but scourge, mistreated, and abandoned, entire civilizations were afraid to even make eye contact in fear of a curse upon their house. Andarla had won. My children died for game, my statues had fallen, and I faced the ultimate humiliation walking among mortals alone.

But this wasn’t the end for me, I decided. I studied every forbidden magic I could across all spectrums, searching for the key for eternal life. I needed to stay alive long enough to figure out a way to ascend back to godhood or reverse time.

Unfortunately true eternal life is impossible for any mortal. Instead I found a way to clone my youthful body as well as a way to transfer souls to another body. Through this process I was able to technically mock immortality; even if die my soul is set to travel to my new body as long as it’s ready. Needless to say I took advantage of this tactic for many centuries and throughout my time I witnessed the rise and fall of many civilizations. And although I started out as a total outcast a worse fate be felled me as time passed, I was forgotten.

I saw the evolution of those who were now cursed by my blood as they became more and more human-like and their powers became more concealed. Even still this didn’t prevent society from attempting to destroy them; witch hunts, crusades, purging, all throughout history, but the numbers were just too great. However, ironically, even my children had forgotten about me and society had forgotten about them; too occupied with other problems across the world.

Now to this day I still walk the Earth.”